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Seconds turn to minutes
as I lie awake in bed
I'm laying in the darkness
but all I see is red
I turn my light on now
and hold the scissors near
trying to stop the dire need
trying to face my fear
I take a few deep breaths
and slowly count to ten
hoping I can put them down
and get to sleep again
tears run down my face
the pleas die in my head
my desire for physical pain
is calling to be fed
I move the scissors slowly
place them gently on my wrist
and as the blade bites down
I'm slowly filled with bliss
tears dry quickly now
a smile forms on my face
sadness slowly leaves
happiness takes its place
as I lie awake in bed
I'm laying in the darkness
but all I see is red
I turn my light on now
and hold the scissors near
trying to stop the dire need
trying to face my fear
I take a few deep breaths
and slowly count to ten
hoping I can put them down
and get to sleep again
tears run down my face
the pleas die in my head
my desire for physical pain
is calling to be fed
I move the scissors slowly
place them gently on my wrist
and as the blade bites down
I'm slowly filled with bliss
tears dry quickly now
a smile forms on my face
sadness slowly leaves
happiness takes its place
Literature
Seeing Red
Silence
Eerie yet
Beautiful
Silence.
The clouds are around me
I can touch them
Pillers of smoke
Reaching up into
The stars
Heaven
There's no-one here
There's nothing here
Not a sound
Not even a whisper
No living thing
It's all white,
The most delicate
White
I never thought I'd make it
But I'm here now
Just me
And the clouds
As far as the eye
can see.
I'm so sleepy
So cosy
So warm
I glance up
There's something coming
I sit up from my soft blanket
of smoke
Something red
It's not right
Upsetting the balance
Closer
and closer
I yell for it to stop
My shout echoes in the space
But it keeps on coming
fas
Literature
My Own Haunts
Down and down I tumble
Towards the end of it all
Feeling so hurt and dead
Just a constant reminder
I wish to bleed
Nothing more to carve away
I want it.
God, I crave it more.
To dig away my skin.
To hide away all the reminders
It will be no better
Probably not. But I hate myself
More for leaving proof
Dreadful memories of what I am
A deep insane mental case
Who tried to end herself many times
Now with marks everywhere
Ashamed and forever frightened
To be judged and lectured
To show off my body to my love
For even my most intimate parts are scared
This is disgusting, I should get rid of it
Hide away al
Literature
Dear Mommy
Dear Mommy,
Look at me now.
Are you proud of your little girl,
All broken with no smile?
Dear Daddy,
Can you see me from up above?
Does the blood that stains my skin,
Please your dead soul?
Dear Life,
I smile at you now.
I see all the pain and blood,
More than every once in awhile.
Dear Everyone Around,
Do you enjoy my pain?
Do you enjoy the fights,
With teeth and skin?
This is the life I chose,
I know I have sinned.
I cannot seem to care any longer, though.
So just leave me alone,
And never bother my soul again.
Leave me to live my life in peace,
For the days I seem to have left.
March 28th, 2011
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This was written due to new .. I don't know what to call it really. adventures? I don't know, but here it is!
Made a couple of my friends cry :$ sorry about that.
hope you guys like it.
Honorable mention to one of my besties.. she helped with one line
Made a couple of my friends cry :$ sorry about that.
hope you guys like it.
Honorable mention to one of my besties.. she helped with one line
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I Absouloutley Loved it !!!!!!!