Binge Binge Purge Purge

The need to be skinny
binge binge purge purge
the tiny voice in my head tells me
skinny skinny is the way to be

I don't know how much longer till
my thoughts are a reality
Binge Binge Purge Purge still
thoughts weakening my will

my evil need to be what I'm not
Skinny Skinny Perfect
The words all scream sexy or hot
not much longer till I'm caught

Haven't decided if I'm going to put this in as a real deviation yet. might just keep the idea kicking around here till I decide to do something better with it. This is basically just my daily thought process
I can't get these thoughts of bulimia out of my head..
I try and try but they come back. First thing I think about in the morning, last thing I think about at night..
I don't know how long until the thoughts become reality..
"Maybe I should purge.."
"Two fingers is all it takes to become perfect.."
"It won't be so bad."
I even put two fingers in my mouth and gagged myself while I was in bed last night..