I'm not okay

Someone please help me, I'm not doing okay
I'm losing this battle, more every day.
I've got this irrational fear, it's eating me quick
It's effecting me so much, I'm physically sick

I'm anxious a lot, I have mood swings too,
And during those things, you never know what I'll do.
I lie, I get angry, and I just get plain sad,
They could be mild, or severe, you never know how bad.

I push away my friends, scared I'll be hurt,
Terrified they'll leave me, or treat me like dirt.
I stick to myself, or at least I try,
The more I do that, the less I cry.